My week of anxiety ended today. Dr. R greeted us with his usual warm handshake and started asking questions. I couldn't stand it. I stopped him and blurted out--"cut to the bottom line; what did the pictures say?" He took us to the room where the scan pictures were and began to explain them. This is what he said (the bottom line): my tumor has decreased 50%; the cancer markers have decreased 20%; there is no lymph node involvement at this time. We will continue with the course of treatment and rescan after two more treatments.
This morning I got on my knees and asked God to please let me hear good news from the doctor if that was His will. If that was not His will, I asked for the grace to accept the news I received.
Dr. R told me before we left that my prayers were being answered. I told him "no, everyone else's prayers were being answered." I find it very easy to praise God for what He does and to pray for others. It's very difficult for me to pray for myself. The prayers that are being said on my behalf are being felt by me on a daily basis. I feel surrounded by a soft, warm blanket and I am very thankful for that feeling. I told Ed today that I want very much to live. God's grace, Dr. R's knowledge and treatment and your prayers will make that a reality. Thank you.
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